Do you know anyone that is a widow? I am...
I'm so sorry to hear that! The death of a spouse is a terrible thing.
What's bad is we weren't on good terms. We got in a terrible fight that night and he rolled his car, was pronounced dead on the spot. Sorry for the details but I have learned to live each day like it was the last. It could be
Oh my gosh! That is so horrible! I'm so sorry for the pain you must feel. It breaks my heart! Widowhood is not a club people ever want to join.
That day, while we were fighting... I did. I went to sleep and and woke up regretting it. Then I got the call. Anyway, I take a day at a time, it's been a year now and I've healed a lot. The regrets is the hardest thing
I think he would probably tell you not to be so hard on yourself. Everyone says things they regret and I'm sure he knows that you cared for him. Still, I can understand how bad you must feel that that was your last interaction. Women typically outlive men, but what you went through was certainly traumatic. 
Hey, thank you very much for those words. I rarely talk to anyone about this because I know they will say what I want to hear and not need to hear. Since I don't know you, I know this should be the truth and it helps so much. I really appreciate it!
I'm so glad I could help. I wish there was more I could do! If you ever need someone to talk to, try to find a local support group. It's not healthy for you to carry resentment towards yourself. Death in a family is always tough, but it doesn't have to leave you destitute and heartbroken.