I'm feeling depressed right now that my brother just diead. I wish I could cheer up.
I am so sorry for your loss !  If you would like to talk, I"m here.
Thanks for the offer. It's always great to have a cheerleader during down times.
Perhaps you could immerse yourself in something you love to do, meditation, exercise or a quite swim.
Meditation could be good but I think I'd find it difficult to foucs on something other than the pain for much time.
Meditation can bring you a calmer sensation and your mind will clear. The idea is NOT to focus, its to loose and immerse yourself in something positive. 
That is true I've used it many times in the past to reduce stress and anxiety.
I understand totally.  Being relaxed is something I truly find worthy of doing. 
I've heard that relaxation can be considered a form of ectasy. That really sounds great!
Lots of things can be considered calming/exciting.  Just depends on which state of mind you prefer :))